excusez-moi, j’ai activé mon anglais en premier et maintenant je n’ai plus la force de tout redire en français. c’est souvent le cas, je m’en rends compte.
recipe against internalizing oppression
accept that what you will write or draw will feel ugly
draw or write
for example, a repetition of « this is too much »
take one pen in left hand, one pen in right hand
close your eyes.
put marks on the paper as if making a very rough portrait of body locations that call your mind. these are usually areas of blocked energy. be as quick as possible with noticing changes from left to right. when you know what an area feels like, write it down with closed eyes. stop when you feel a slight release in your head.
turn the page of your notebook.
again, one pen in left, one pen in right hand.
alternatively draw lines that are all these possibilities in you that are blocked by your own judge or by new rules added or confusion or an overload of emotion. maybe you will know what narratives they tell. maybe not because the mind is too fast.
inevitably this will start shifting things and emotions will show up. e – motions will happen.
commit to feel that. this is what is behind the oppression.
it is extremely vulnerable life.
draw the lines that come out of that.
maybe extremely vulnerable big hands will suddenly show up.
let the lines go up.
let them pierce 1% of your own trauma.
no need for more.
commit to the (minuscule) light when you see some near the lines.
stay for a fraction of a second.
feel the tiny bit of peace that comes.